Sunday, 28 January 2018

A strange kind of calm

One thing that I've realized in my breakdown and most difficult decision to self-impose a permanent estrangement from someone who was once utterly important to me (well, still is but I've come to accept some things that stem from the breakdown), is that I seem to have attain some kind of strange calmness. It's just that I've been in a hellish waiting mode all these years and once that is gone there is peace that probably is not strange but normal but certainly something that has become unfamiliar to me because of its long, long absence in my life.