I've been alone a long time. It's an extreme kind of loneliness and it really gets to me sometimes. I sometimes suffer almost debilitating sadness and sense of hopelessness.
I know that I'm kind of different from other people but I don't think that even I was made to be alone this way.
This time of year is usually the saddest when my loneliness becomes very obvious: I don't know any of my children, don't know any of my grandchildren. It's when human touch that's been largely absent throughout the year is really absent.
I have the love of my life whom I don't live with and haven't lived with for many years now. But I've never fallen out of love with her.
Am I cursed?