I've rediscovered the radio. I'm the midst of moving to another town, another job and everything is packed and gone so I've been listening to online radio all day. Thank G*d for the CBC, or more precisely, the CBC radio show called, Ideas. This is where I've discovered Richard Kearney and his notion of "ana-theos" or returning to G*d after G*d.
Here is the link to the online broadcast of the episode of Ideas where Kearney is featured: http://www.cbc.ca/player/Radio/Ideas/Full+Episodes/ID/2469543746/
Wow. I know I've wanted to "reclaim" Christianity but I didn't realize that there is a beautifully developed discourse for what I've only felt and been unable to articulate and clumsily tried to actualize both in thought and act.
I need to think some more...